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Tracy
Hey little bro,
Nathan if only you knew how much we cared, then maybe you would not have made the chice you did. If you'd know of the devestated lives you would leave behind once you made this decision.
Every day I am feeling the pain of knowing you are not here.
The reality of it all has still not hit me properly yet.
You were too young to go from us. In your hands you chose the path that has left so many devistated lives behind.
Till I see you agin little brother.
Loved forever in my heart.
Your big sister
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jo
My dearest big brother. It has been nearly 10 years and the closer that anniversary creeps toward me the more scared I am.I don't know how I am going to feel.I have me beautiful children to look at me and think how lucky I am but also feel sad that you never got to meet them and play with them and tell silly stories about us when we grew up.People say everything in life happens for a reason but the reason you left us is still a mystery to me.I loved you then and still love you and miss you now.Love you bro.
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Chantal
Dear Gavin,
Happy Birthday beautiful man. The first time we've had your birthday without you.
We saw the Dali exhibition. I totally understand it. I was swept away with his talent...not unlike yours.
We got you the Dali exhibition book for your birthday. Your card is on your bed. I made you a cherry ripe cheesecake.
We went out with your friends last night to celebrate your birthday. They all love you so much. And we ALL miss you.
Happy 26th Birthday my brother. I love you so much. Come into my dreams Gavin!!!
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Chantal
Gavin, how did this happen? How did we lose you. I can't believe this has happened. It was just you, mum and me. I've lost my little brother and I don't know why. You went overseas to find yourself, to change your life and just as you were coming home, it ended.
We watched your plane come in. Did you know we were there? Out the back beside the road, watching as the planes hit the runway. Your plane was the only one that came near us. We watched you go past. I'd imagined you coming back so many times. Walking off the plane, smiling and sunburnt. Telling us about all the things you did, all the amazing sights you saw, sharing your photos with us. But now we'll never know anything.
How will I cope? I don't want to go on without you. I love you so much. You are the only person who knows me, who knows what its like to be us. We are the only people in the world who understood the other one. You were going to help me with mum, you were going to be there with me when I'm old. You were the one who would love me, unconditionally, for life.
We're celebrating your birthday next week with your friends - yes we found them! Don't be angry - we had to. I went on your facebook page and email to contact them. You wouldn't believe me if I told you how loved you are. I'm sorry I've gone through your things - I know how private you are but I have to try and find an answer. I'm sorry we've been talking to Andrew. He knew you in ways we never could and he's a window into another part of your life. He's devastated and sorry for what happened. We need him at the moment. I hope you understand.
Your beautiful songs and poetry make me cry. I lay in your bed and hug baby gruff. I wear your necklace and I light a candle for you each night.
We displayed all your art in an exhibition at your service. People can't believe how talented you are. Who will I get my culture from? Who will challenge and inspire me now? I'll read your many many books, I'll watch your movies, I'll listen to your music. But it won't be the same. You won't be there to tell me what it was you liked about it. I will cherish your cds. And I can't believe you got me a kaftan. But all I want is you. I have to do this without you now. I never imagined it. Without my little brother for the rest of my life. It doesn't feel real. What happened Gavin? Were you in pain? Were you scared? I'm so sorry I wasn't there. I can promise you that you will be in my heart everyday forever. I think you would know what this means. What not having you is doing to us. I know you'd be hurting too.
You know how you wanted a tattoo...I got one for you. It's a design you drew on the same page as the lady praying.
I wanted you there for the rest of my life. Gavin, my beautiful man, how do I do this without you? It's too horrible to be real. To not have you to hug or talk with. I see you in my mind, walking, talking, laughing. But then you are nowhere. This gap in my heart
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Rara2345
Hey Joshy
Its my birthday today
I hope u remembered
I love u hope ur happy
see ya
love u
miss u
and I will never forget u
Love Rara
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Rara2345
To all the struggling souls out there.
This is the hardest time in life when a family member passes away but u have to remember that they would want u not to cry so try to be happy.
Hope this helps.
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Rara2345
hey Joshy G
How r u?
Im missing u sooo much.
i wish i could see u again.
i love u
i miss u
and i will never forget u
Love rara
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your lil sister
I miss you so much. Although it's nearly been seven years it still hasn't quite sunk in. At times, I'm so convinced that your just on holidays, or something. I wish that was true. I thought if I wished hard enough it would come true, but it hasn't. I can't make sense of why this has happened. I have detached my self from any feelings, from life, because I don't want to ever feel that pain again. I don't want to say 'Goodbye'! If I don't say it, maybe you won't be able to leave me... I love you!
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"Minnie"
Hey big bro!
Hope you had a good easter. :)
i'm missin you so much!
xoxo