For My Dear Sister Nat

Standing here in the silence alone, recalling now the pain and suffering you’d shown
You were in such great despair and it saddens me to think you thought that no one gave a care
You were such a very beautiful young soul and your untimely passing has touched us all
Your sadness caused you so much heartache and pain, so in this life you felt you could no longer remain
Your passing has caused us such great despair because Natalie Dearest Sister we really did care
So sorry we didn’t better show this to you, so sorry that you had felt so blue
Life will never be the same again, the loss of a daughter, mother, sister and friend
Not having you here in our life is going to cause us much pain and strife
You were so dear and precious to me, and I’m so sad if this is something you perhaps did not see
Sorry I didn’t tell you I loved you more, sorry I couldn’t help mend your heart that was tore
You had been hurt; you’d lost so much so from this world and this life you had got out of touch
So sorry we didn’t better reach out more to you, so sorry perhaps we didn’t share just how much we loved you
If there was anything at all to have prevented your fate, it would’ve been done twice over but now it’s too late
You’re gone and you’ve left such an empty space and the sadness I feel from this empty place
This world has lost such a beautiful girl; you were a fighter, a butterfly a beautiful pearl
Precious and dear you will always remain, the only comfort is knowing you’ll experience no more pain
Nothing or no one will ever replace you; a space that will never be filled, has left an empty void in my life a pain that can never be healed
Did you know that we would all miss you this much, did you know how much pain we would feel; never again being able to see your face, never again your touch being able to feel
This is the pain we’ve been left behind with; this is the pain we are unable to conceal
Because we’ve lost someone so precious to us, someone so true and so real
Your pain we could not take away, your pain we weren’t able to heal and so you choose your own way out leaving behind all the pain and the sorrow; and what it’s served to do now for us is leave us feeling so hollow
So what more can I say to you now but Dear Nat may you now rest in peace, it is what you always deserved in your life but sadly what you got least

Annette Matov
5th September 2011